shifting

2020 was a tough year. Thank you, at least you survived. I learn to pick up my (messy) self. Despite so many unfortune news circulated. Thanks to every support systems through this year. Tribute to careerclass, one that makes me realistic and shows many perspectives. I wrote a little about it in this post. Tribute to beginagain channel that help calming my feeling, even I didn't understand any single lyrics :p. Tribute to ustadz nuzul zikri one-hour-live every morning that support me spiritually and succeed make me not sleep again after dawn :p

When I look back, ah, slow living idea was nice thing. I simply tried just to be ordinary person. Wkwk. I don't wanna love my self too much. I don't wanna be so hard on my self. I just want to balance things. Being comfortable with imperfection. Dealing with loneliness. Bravely to make life better by my own standards, little by little. In some case I choose to be bold, literally, with eloquent communication skill. Pfft. You can't please everyone anyway.

Changing habit is not easy. You need strong will and perseverance. Start small, for me like a morning walk. I start morning walk / jog to organize my thoughts, two years ago. Nowadays, I simply walk to get some sunlight or just to keep my self from doze off during meetings without coffee. Haha. Another thing that I take seriously as (health) investment is consume real foods; eat less flour, sugar, dairy, and processed food. I learn from rainbowofmylife. It's really helpful to deal with my picky eater problem, even if I haven't tried green smoothies yet.

Based on one of financial class careerclass, I decided to try another investment instruments with smaller risk than stocks (re: mutual funds). Following my previous posting about investment, when my portfolio slightly greener, I came back wkwk. There are still many things that needs to be improved, I also took CSM class. Yet the problem still lies in me who is not disciplined with trading plan and managed greed. Fighting, pension fund target still far away. Haha. So, choose your battle wisely.